This is your future mother speaking. Some people may think this is completely crazy, but not me. I want you to know that it is my will in life to be a mom, and I feel so blessed to be yours. I think about you every day and dream of what you'll look like. I imagine you growing in my belly, laying on our bed and watching you kick, and the day you come into this world. I imagine you taking your first steps, eating your first yummy treat, and what your giggle will sound like.
Will you have my golden eyes? Will you have Bryan's mousey brown hair? Will you have long black eyelashes or short stubby blonde ones like me? Will I be able to breast feed you adequately? Will you be healthy? Will I love you no matter what? Will you love me no matter what? Will I be a good mom like I've thought I would be all this time? Will I break down and cry when I can't get you to stop crying? Will I spend all my time worrying about the person you grow up to be and wanting to protect you? Will I make some of the same mistakes with you that other mother's have made? Will you be born in time to meet your great grandparents?
I can't wait to watch you play with your cousin Sophie, she will love you so much. I can't wait to spend maternity leave for you, it may not be as long as I'd like, but none the less it will be our time. I can't wait spend quiet nights with you rocking you to sleep and nights soothing your tears. I can't wait to watch you grow, and for the first time I can put your hair in a pony (if you're a girl) or a little stud muffin outfit (if you're a boy). I can't wait to see Bryan hold you and fall completely in love with you because he will. I can't wait to rejoice in every milestone - big or small - because you will be brilliant.
No matter what, I will love you unconditionally.
We both love you and can't wait to meet you someday down the road.
Until then I'm counting down a little impatiently.
Lovingly waiting,
Your mama
